After a year of many achievements and heart- wrenching moments, I was wondering what to write to you about in order to share some motivation and inspiration. I first thought about telling you of those achievements such as playing in the National Theatre and graduating my Bachelor’s in Drama or telling you about the passing of my uncle or my aunt being in the hospital because of Covid. I thought I shouldn’t miss to tell you about my moving to London in a few weeks. Good news is, today the subject of my post came to me on its own.
I want to talk to you about independence and excuses and how if we eliminate them, success is sure to come around.
Today I discovered the reason for my move and the reason to feel so stressed and upset right now is because I expect too much of other people and not so much of me. Ever since I’ve been a part of the acting industry, albeit as a student, all I could hear was how great I am followed by fake promises for projects. I even heard it in my own hometown while I was working as a barista. One of the clients came up to me with the following sentence: “I heard you want to be an actress. I know this guy who’s part of the Actor’s Assembly in Sofia. You just let me know and I’ll make the call.” I am bombarded with those on daily basis. My first mentor told me he wanted to do a play with me and his sister, also famous actress, and how I should start looking for plays. At first, I would believe those propositions and hope for the chance to work. Today I am absolutely uninterested and unbothered by anyone who promises anything to me.
I have decided to take full responsibility for my career and my life. I want to rely on myself first and trust in myself that I can do it. I don’t want to live a hopeful life, waiting for someone’s schedule to fit me in. That’s why I took the cardinal decision to move to another country on my own and take full control. But even during my preparation for the trip I’ve been learning this lessons- the path to success wants us to get to the top alone. People would again promise to help with this and that, place to live, work, or CV application. I purchased a package from this company that makes CVs and they ended up doing it poorly. Then I wondered why I didn’t trust myself enough to do it alone? I was reading through the new version and I would think: “This sounds weird; maybe I should ask my cousin from Canada if it’s well written.” Why would I? I have Bachelor’s Degree in Applied Languages… Does that mean nothing to me?
I realized in this moment I was making excuses and the biggest excuse was: “I have no knowledge in this.” Half of the time in those cases we actually have the knowledge but we underestimate ourselves too much. Maybe because we don’t want to appear too confident or because we beat ourselves down every day. That’s stupid. I am very bumped out about the fact almost all industries take people who can sell themselves but don’t have the knowledge or the talent, the world today welcomes pompous and weird LAZY people. So why wouldn’t you- the skilled, educated, and humble professional not make it? But even if that’s not the case, I have found that the key to success is to identify what you don’t know and learn it. Is it so hard to learn how to format British CVs? Is it so hard to learn time management? Is it so hard to learn how to prevent burn out? Of course not! Everything is out there for us to learn, we live in a time where we have the world served to us in a plate. We just need to stop making excuses like: “no time, no knowledge, no motivation, no drive, no opportunity.” And stop waiting for someone to come help you or make you a good offer. Take the tools and make your own path because it’s our own life and it’s our own dream, nobody else’s.
I think that’s an important aspect of our careers- identify problems- solve them; trust in ourselves a bit more and take control!